Never fell from grace

My greatest dubious feat in this lifetime, is to manage to more or less, fit in and look acceptable.  Geez, that's hard to do! Why do I continue?  I should wear a robe with nature designs on it, or something. It is the little boy in me, going to church, or school, wearing my neat shirt wanting to look good for all the girls.  That kind of thing dies hard.  Should I be like the crazy Hindu sitting on a boulder with matted hair, and eating snakes?  That's hard to do, too.  Sitting in bliss like Buddha is also hard to do, but that seems to be the top of the human pyramid of self realization. Everything for him is just occurring within his consciousness.

I gently tell myself that it doesn't matter what the populace thinks in a life such as mine. . . ?in terms of enlightenment.  They've never come to any righteous conclusion on anything, anyway. How could they? They are in a world of judgement and division. . . .the dualistic mind. . . . .and "we" are not, right?.  I AM. not of the realm of division or judgement any more.  And I see that I never really was.  Your greater being . . . your entity personality. . . .never fell from grace.

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