Riding along
Riding along this morning the ego was acting up. I'm in coos bay. Meaning, I, or it was angry because of a lack of recognition for my genius from friends and peers. I never quite identify with this sort of thing any more, because I know in a matter of moments you can feel all right again. I do not teach denial of the ego, or to kill it. My sense of self has become more whole, parts of myself can feel angry or frustrated, and I don't teach abstention at all. I'm wanting to give the ego more so I can be happier at that level. I know, however, that there are no conditions to happiness, so it often seems like I'm damned if I do try for "success" and damned if I don't, mother is urging me to do the things that give me joy and peace, and just accept the natural material reward that comes. I know, mother, but I've been doing that for years! Is the ego ever happy with what it has? I don't think so. On its own, ego cannot be happy, because it is a product of the separation from God which is happiness
Ego has become transformed in me through the years. I perceive what used to be ego as points of light that circle around me like the end of spokes on a wheel. Each ball of light represents different lifetimes, in a way. There are concentrations of psychic energy which have varying personality characteristics . How these various lifetimes can be seen as one, I cannot explain in words. You gotta see it to believe it. Everything in timeless realms is much more fluid than what your physical sensations present to your brain.
Just as an argument on the side of staying the way I am: the guy who has that wonderful mansion and beautiful wife and worldwide fame, still ages, he gets diseases, he gets bored, he waches tv and drinks too much and then he dies. None of which will happen to me.. And he is still ignorant about what man really is. This is the sort of thing siddhartha noticed which sent him on his trip to enlightenment . Buddha didn't die, he ascended
On that note, I've been thinking. ( not unusual as u might have guessed ) Buddha teaches the middle way. I like what krishnamurti said. . . . .be choice less. . . . Don't chose gratification don't choose abstention, and don't choose the middle way either! I think your own personal "way" is going to go all over the map. If you don't choose, then you are again just in the state on observation , which, you will notice is like the middle path in which you are calm and happy to be here! Your inner self remains stable at the same time your personalities revolve around you, some are abstinent some are leading a fleshly existence, some are paupers, some princes, some are heroes, some are the perpetrators. Your true Being Essence lives all kinds of lives, many which are not even human at all, and would be alien to you.
Ego has become transformed in me through the years. I perceive what used to be ego as points of light that circle around me like the end of spokes on a wheel. Each ball of light represents different lifetimes, in a way. There are concentrations of psychic energy which have varying personality characteristics . How these various lifetimes can be seen as one, I cannot explain in words. You gotta see it to believe it. Everything in timeless realms is much more fluid than what your physical sensations present to your brain.
Just as an argument on the side of staying the way I am: the guy who has that wonderful mansion and beautiful wife and worldwide fame, still ages, he gets diseases, he gets bored, he waches tv and drinks too much and then he dies. None of which will happen to me.. And he is still ignorant about what man really is. This is the sort of thing siddhartha noticed which sent him on his trip to enlightenment . Buddha didn't die, he ascended
On that note, I've been thinking. ( not unusual as u might have guessed ) Buddha teaches the middle way. I like what krishnamurti said. . . . .be choice less. . . . Don't chose gratification don't choose abstention, and don't choose the middle way either! I think your own personal "way" is going to go all over the map. If you don't choose, then you are again just in the state on observation , which, you will notice is like the middle path in which you are calm and happy to be here! Your inner self remains stable at the same time your personalities revolve around you, some are abstinent some are leading a fleshly existence, some are paupers, some princes, some are heroes, some are the perpetrators. Your true Being Essence lives all kinds of lives, many which are not even human at all, and would be alien to you.
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